Almost again?

Here it comes again, I think. It seems that we could leave again almost any time. I am not feeling quite as apprehensive as last time. Last time I really did not want to go. In the back of my mind I just thought that there was a chance that I was not going to come back from there. I know that that's a little dumb, but you can't dictate your feelings. An aside. Have you ever seen that stupid add for wiskas cat food where the guy pretends to be a cat. That is just on now, and that is without a doubt the dumbest add in the history of tv. How can any self respecting man act like that and call himself a man. About six months ago I wrote wiskas an e-mail and told them how stupid it was and said even if I had a cat I would sooner it starve than feed it wiskas. I didn't tell them I would never own a cat anyway, filthy animals. They still didn't pull the add. Anyway, back to your regularly scheduled post. Where was I, yes, you can't dictate your feelings. I wish I was always strong and could say that I feel good about the outcome of this treatment, that I will be one of the lucky ones and live a long life, that I will be able to see my grandchildren grow up and get married, all those things that make all of us warm inside. But sometimes my mind goes other places. The last couple of days my legs have really been hurting and they just ache really bad. I know that it doesn't have anything to do with my cancer, I don't think, but sometimes it just seems like one thing after another and then my mind goes a little dark. Enough of that though. If I dwell on it, things just get worse. Just got off the phone with my brother Henry, and that always cheers me up. I talked to Ben today and that always helps, so I really must start thinking about that instead of where my mind wants to go.
You all need to start praying that there would be a place for us to live in Union Bay Apartments. We can live some where else but this place is close, clean and we know it. We do not want to have to live in a hotel for a while either, I would not like to live out of restaurant's. I think I have made enough demands on you for a while. Thank you for your continued thoughts and prayers, you are all true friends. Oh, pray also that when we go, David won't have to be in Seattle right when Carolynn goes in to have the baby. We only need a small window of 10 days where it would be safe for him to be here, so pray that it doesn't happen at the same time.